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Wednesday, July 19, 2006
[A lot of you probably already know this.] A congregational meeting was held last Sunday to call a pastor. The church unanimously voted to call my dad. If he accepts, this means our stay here in Australia will be indefinite. There's several technical details - like applying for a permanent residence or getting our visa extended - and a lot of thinking and praying that has to be sorted out in the near future. So... probably a lot of you are asking or have asked (or know already), "How do you feel about this?" The simple answer? I don't know. And honestly and sincerely, I don't completely know. I guess I have mixed emotions about a lot of it. I love, love, LOVE my family and friends and home in the States. I also have grown to really love the people here. I feel kind of torn, I guess. Like instead of living in one world and life, I have these two different worlds I live in: the one I've always known and loved, and the one I've gotten to know and am learning to love. I keep telling my dad that if only we had simply stayed in Indiana, we would've been perfectly content (or pretty nearly). Now, no matter where we live, we are always going to feel a bit sad. A part of us is always going to be missing. Though I'd like to sometimes think so, the decission to go or stay isn't based primarily on our desires. It's on what God wants. I know this. I've always known this. But for some reason, I can't quite seem to fully grasp this concept. I've been thinking about this for almost the full six months we've lived here. And I've come to a few conclusive thoughts: 1. It's God's will for us to be here right now. (Yeah...we're here.) 2. God's will is often hard - at least for a time. 3. Our new church family really loves us. (That didn't take very long to figure out...maybe 24 hours.) 4. Our new church family (and the RP church of Australia in general) needs us. Or at least they need a family like ours. But I keep asking the question (half to God, half to myself) "Why us?" I guess I should have learned by now not to ask "why" of God. I'm never going to really get a satisfying answer. At least, not one that satisfies my futile mind and heart. That things I know and the things I want keep clashing. I want to go back to America. It's pretty selfish, I know. But it's not necessarily out of the rhelm of God's will. Thoughts and prayers are very much appreciated. song of the post ~ An assortment of lovely songs as sung by the Blackwoods and the Australian Missions Team (I don't know if you guys will appreciate this, but we sure think it's like the greatest thing EVER! ;-)) Oh and hopefully someday soon I'll post some quotes from the Missions Team and other things... Charity | 5:48 pm Comments-[ comments.] |
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